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On March 11, 2004 was my what you could call September 11th. My worst nightmare happened. I received a call at work to rush to the hospital my baby girl was taken their. I arrived just to hear that she didn't make it. I questioned why? What happened? No one knew, alls they could tell me is that her heart stopped in the ER. I was devastated. After 2 months had passed we learned that Alyssa had complications with her lungs and quit breathing soon after her heart stopped. She was sick and the doctor I took her to six days prior to her death said that she was perfect. I took her because she had a cold and I wanted her lungs checked. She could have been saved if the doctor would have detected it. Her father Jeremy was on the run from the law they caught up with him at her funeral. I had to grieve all alone. I was falling apart I was drinking everyday for two weeks and I couldn't deal with my 3 year old son, I was very distant from him I didn't even want to be around him. I started counseling and she diagnosed me a depressant so I went to see a doctor for some depressants to help me, they didn't. I later then found my self not wanting to live anymore and I would plan out how I could kill my self by overdosing on the depressants that I was prescribed. I never went thru with it. As I was discussing my life to my counselor she asked me if Jeremy was bipolar and I said I don't know, Why? She said it sounds like he is. I all ways knew that their was something wrong with Jeremy. So we had him screened and sure enough he was. Then I started going to church with Jeremy's mother. I wasn't getting enough their so I went back to the church that I went to when I was sixteen, God delivered me on that Wednesday night. Since then I quit drinking going on 3 months and I quit smoking going on 2 months now. Jeremy is taking medication and we both have given our lives over to God. Our little boy Dominic is doing well and I show him all the love and then some that he needs from me. I think God for loving me and delivering my family. He continues to work wonders for my family and I. If it were not for God I would be dead and going to hell and my son would be with out his mother and I would have never seen my daughter again. I am now a born again Christian and I am seeking my purpose for my life and I plan to accomplish it by the grace of God. I will live for God for the rest of my life.